scribbled ; 9:42 am on Sunday, June 21, 2009
honestly, i have no idea why am i even blogging this post.. i think i just need to speak to my beloved diary again.. feeling god damn lousy now..

can someone just kindly teach me what can i do? just anyone pretty please.. teach me.. my heart's crying.. it hurts.. suddenly i feel empty.. the most important person doesn't wanna talk to me.. maybe there's really a problem with me i guess..

i might not be perfect.. i know i have many flaws.. i know i've always made you upset.. i know everything.. but it seems that i've never done a good job rectifiying the problem.. sometimes i'm just speechless..

baby.. would you please just let me tell you how i really feel about you? i'm not good at words.. i keep repeating my words.. because i don't know how can i tell you..

i still remember the day we met.. it was just pure coincidence.. being in a boss and worker relationship.. we blossomed that relationship to what we are now.. i remember everything single thing you tell me.. and i remember every single event we did together..

expectations get higher and higher.. i just want to tell you that i'm sure i want you.. i mean what i've said to you.. i'm really serious.. i know i need to learn.. but you don't want to waste so much time just for me to learn.. but give me the opportunity.. don't shut the door on me.. because i really love you..