scribbled ; 7:22 pm on Thursday, February 19, 2009
suddenly just felt like blogging.. honestly speaking.. how many of us cherish our family members? as in really respecting them and spend precious times with them?

i dunno.. and i guess no one noes either.. it seems like we are so used to them that they are taken for granted.. got a bad news.. i dunno how long will my dad stay in this world after this post.. he went for his follow-up for his heart problem stuffs.. and the doctor said that his heart is failing.. and its not functioning well.. so basically its equal to he might go anytime.. when i heard that i was shocked.. but wad else can i do?

since young, my dad has been the one who's been giving me things that i wanted.. although not all.. but most of it.. now that im already an adult.. i used to think about the past.. i just hope that he'll become better.. he'll live till the day im gonna get married and hopefully that he gets to see his own grandson or granddaughter.. but i dunno whether that day will come.. im not being pessimistic.. but his health has been going downwards like since 4-5 years ago since my grandma passed away.. he's been so stressed up with so many things.. and my mum has been nagging at him always.. so its kinda pissing me off.. and obviously.. i havent been the best of sons to him also..

if he does leave this world.. im one of the culprits.. if there's god.. hopefully tell me what can i do..