scribbled ; 3:02 pm on Monday, June 02, 2008
its been 4 days since i went home.. i oso dunno why.. havent recovered from my sickness too.. but did my paper today.. i thought i did quite well.. haha..

well with regards on my previous post.. yeah.. its all true.. and also.. i tried letting everything go.. i really tried.. but i cant.. but well.. its good that u moved on.. jus sad to say that i cant.. i tried to be happy.. but i cant do it..

yes everyone is saying.. let go and let time heals everything.. or even saying.. jus be happy.. things will be fine.. i understand all of these.. but its easier said den done isnt it? if one day.. a same situation falls on anyone of u.. u would be just like me.. or maybe not so bad.. becos being softhearted and indecisive has been my weakest point in a relationship.. i just cant do it..

im just satisfied living in wilderness now.. wadever comes it comes.. wadever doesnt.. it doesnt.. im just happy to be busy 24/7 now.. even if im sick.. i would rather find something to do den rest.. i dun wanna be idling.. just now.. on the bus.. i saw my neighbour.. she asked me.. its been ages since u brought ur gf back isnt it? i didnt noe how to reply.. i just told her.. we are no longer together.. i couldnt muster any more strength to say anything.. i was trying to hold back my sadness.. i didnt want my neighbour whom have seen me grown up as a kid to console me like im a lil boy..

i noe i've grown up.. i have learn to accept things.. but i guess some things are just too much for me to take.. i've decided.. to go for the op during my 1 week proposal break.. well.. i dunno wad else to say.. but if it goes badly.. means i'll forget everything.. u are the last one that i wanna forget.. but lets leave everything to fate..

bryan.. if u dont cheer urself up.. no one ever will.. can u do it?

我只想好好的跟你说声谢谢。等待不一定会有结果，不过至少我曾尝试过。只要你过得比我幸福，我会从远方看着你的微笑。那我就满足了。