scribbled ; 3:31 pm on Sunday, May 25, 2008
well.. supposedly i was supposed to have my test drive ytd.. but den last min it got cancelled.. so was thinking of meeting mel la.. wanted to go town with him.. YES just 2 GUYS.. its gay i noe.. but well.. HAHA.. we met up at aljunied MRT station instead.. cos he wanna go a so called temple at geylang lorong 16 ba.. so i just followed.. since im a buddhist also..

well.. we both so called went for this fortune telling thing.. i dont noe how to word it in english.. if u guys wanna noe can actually ask me in msn.. i'll explain in chinese.. haha..

so the 1st thing the master told me this when he saw me..
"you're someone who puts frens above anything.. i would rather die den let ppl die.. and u treasures brotherhood more den anything.. if ppl were to misunderstand u.. no matter wad i'll do all things to make sure its resolved.. but thats also the weakest point.. i mus change.."
after this sentence.. i was shocked.. its nth but 101% truth.. well.. thats the 1st time the master saw me.. so im really amazed.. he jus asked for the day i was borned.. and bingo.. he got everything spot on.. well he also touched on my love life.. and family stuffs.. and touching on everything that has happened recently.. all i can say that.. its very true.. he even went on saying.. sometimes i jus wanna run away from everything.. and i dont even noe myself well.. i agree too.. sometimes.. i jus hope i would go into a corner and jus hide myself.. and i really dunno what i wanna do in life anymore.. and i dunno wad to do anymore.. his words made me think alot.. melvin was laughing.. becos things that i've been denying to him subconciously.. has been blurted out by the master.. so lan lan.. hafta let him suan.. hahah.. but mel.. thanks alot for bringing me there.. really felt alot better..

becos i think.. its really important to really measure ur life.. at this very moment.. my life is still stucked at this point.. i MUST find a way to move out.. but i dont noe how.. i just guess.. take a step at a time ba.. as long as everyone around me is happy.. im happy too.. thats the ultimate thing i hope that will happen.. =)