scribbled ; 10:23 pm on Thursday, June 28, 2007
am i ? or am i not ?

its 1251am.. many things float through my mind.. what have i becomed? am i correct or am i wrong? everyone has their own sayings.. i've encountered failed relationships.. but never one was so important compared to now.. i guess its the time frame that changes all these factors.. i guess at the end of the day.. i should be the one responsible.. never in my life i've felt this way.. i guess.. no one really noes either.. im drowning into a sea of tears.. or maybe i could have said.. rest in peace bryan.. u can never be happy again? i dont noe.. im lost..

its 421am.. im home yet still i havent gone to bed.. haha.. locking myself in my own room.. feeling desperate and feeling lost.. i feel numb too.. cant feel it in any way.. my heart is bleeding.. my eyes are tearing.. what should i do? i've got the urge to sms baby.. really i have.. but at the end i chose not too.. cos i just want her to wake up with a nice day.. i supposed.. rather den making her upset again.. so am i who i am? i have no idea..