scribbled ; 10:50 pm on Sunday, September 24, 2006
just felt like now since baby went to slp.. was sms-ing with her just now.. till she went to bed.. well.. something happened in my family though.. it regards to my dad.. dont wanna say wad happened.. as im feeling kinda sad now..

maybe baby is right.. im like selfish towards my family.. maybe its cos of the factor that i've been so alone for the past 19 years.. except for my dad to be there for me.. am i? or am i not?

suddenly.. this situation becomes a burden to me.. how am i gonna solve it..?

baby.. i noe u'll be there.. but somehow.. i still need myself to clear up the mess.. right? totally not in a right frame of mind to do anything now.. im really sad.. =(