scribbled ; 2:13 am on Thursday, December 29, 2005
this post will be a pretty solemn one.. but 1stly i'll start with the day's programme.. woke up in the morning.. met up with ms.. went to tamp.. to meet up with ying wenxi and joycelyn.. and mel of course.. came later.. went to kbox.. didnt really have the mood.. quite alot of things that is bugging me.. but.. i guess it will be solved soon.. after kbox.. we wanted to watch a movie.. but den.. dun have.. how sad.. den went to TM food court eat.. b4 mel's cousin came to join us.. forgotten her name.. sorry bout that.. after that.. home sweet home.. =)

well.. i'll like to say.. to me.. i've suffered from depression b4.. i noe how it feels.. wanting to lose ur life.. do foolish things.. i understand that.. but all i can tell u is.. u hafta noe.. who's the important people around u.. u noe who are the people.. by leaving us this way.. how will we feel? i dun wish to be on the verge of losing someone close to me again.. all of us plays a part in each of our group's life.. all i can say.. treasure it.. u have us to go thru all these with u.. u said i've changed for the better.. i would like to see u get back to ur old self again.. not this depressive self.. i dun like it.. i prefer that funny and cheerful u.. im waiting.. =)