scribbled ; 7:04 pm on Thursday, September 15, 2005
yeah.. wad uri said was right.. nth last forever.. for friends and partners.. hmm i guess.. there's really a big problem with my attitude.. well.. all i can say is besides changing.. i need u guys to guide me along b4 i can become better.. no guidance = no improvements.. and i apologise for wadever i did..

and now moving on to my dar.. perhaps the last time im gonna call her that? but well.. dont matter anymore.. i guess the love she have for me is more to wanting me to be happy bah.. i guess its over? well.. gonna skip the part where im gonna drop tears and wad im gonna do.. basically i lost hope.. its no longer important from now onwards.. on wads gonna happen to me.. cos no one will care.. and no one will bother.. never gonna be happy with my life.. wad i need now is confidence to stand up again.. but i dun have it.. and i dun wish to.. ironic isnt it? who cares.. well im gone.. take care to every one of my buddies.. and especially you.. u mean alot to me.. but.. maybe its all predestined.. u must really take good care of ur body ok? i still love u alot.. no doubt bout it..