scribbled ; 11:13 pm on Sunday, September 25, 2005
very very sad day.. as early as 6am my mum called from msia saying grandpa is sort of really gonna go anytime.. so immediately rushed down to msia.. by ard 8.. reached my uncle's hse.. very solemn mood.. well saw grandpa.. he wanted to say something to me.. but he couldnt at all.. but i guess he was really happy to see me.. cried.. but i hafta hold back my tears.. cos.. im a young adult i needa be there for my family members.. and in my mind i had dar in mind the whole day.. well.. she's my mental support.. cos the reason im not breaking down is her.. cos she is there to support me.. thus allowing me to support others.. dar.. we always have small misunderstandings.. but i think u should noe how i really feel bah.. hais.. i guess i really sometimes just so useless lor.. making u upset.. i wont slp.. and do punishments till u willing to reply me again.. i swear.. =( ying wei.. wo zhen de hen ai hen ai ni.. sobs..