scribbled ; 3:17 pm on Thursday, September 01, 2005
misunderstanding kills EVERYTHING.. thats wad i can conclude.. nvm.. used to being mistaken.. hahas.. anyway.. my conscience is clear.. i can swear to everything i can swear too.. I HAVE NEVER ACTED WITH A MASK ON MY FACE.. and thats not my forte.. if u do think im.. im sorry to disappoint u.. u can choose not to believe me.. but dun ever doubt me.. i dun like that feeling.. u should noe best.. but anyway.. nth is always fruitful.. i've let u down more den enough times to be counted.. but for this time.. i didnt.. i can really swear.. but.. will u even bother now? i dun think so.. i mean.. life is really unpredictable.. i have no idea y things turned out tis way.. i didnt want them to be lydat.. maybe its just that.. im not decisive enough.. nvm.. who cares.. i oso dunno wad i can do.. in fact there's nth i can do now.. everything's dead.. well.. hafta blame myself.. i caused all these.. all these had cause alot of unhappiness.. including the lost of teammates.. friends.. loved ones.. this is a scar that can never be erased..