im losing it.. hais.. im feeling very very very upset.. feeling more and more stressed.. i dunno why.. things doesnt go the way i wan to.. why? hais.. ahgong passed away le.. tis few days will be me rushing between sg and msia.. very busy.. im very afraid i'll neglect laopo.. hais.. wo hao mei you yong.. i just feel im not a gd hubby.. always making her upset.. i dunno wad i can do to make her happy.. she is always there for me whenever im feeling down.. yet sometimes i nv spare a thought for her.. am i too selfish? im really afraid to lose her.. i really mean it.. hais.. i've lost alot of things.. and ppl around me.. latest.. is ahgong.. well.. i noe he's old.. he has to go.. but miss him alot.. cos he is always there to encourage me when something happens.. and always the 1st to agree that i should get married asap.. tears rolled down my cheeks when i mentioned bout him.. and now i've got a gd gf.. i really wanna let him see.. but he left me.. hais.. ahgong.. i promise u i will treat hui good.. u always tell me.. its time for me to be a man le.. i noe wad i should do.. i will oso do well in my studies..

to my laopo.. dar.. i noe sometimes i might neglect u.. but to be honest.. u are always on my mind.. never 1 moment that i dun think of u.. i might not be the best laogong.. but i'll definitely be the one that love u most.. to u.. i have nth but plenty of love and thanks for u.. i love you for wad u are.. ur past dont matter to me.. cos i really love u.. and thank you for being so tolerant and being so understanding towards me.. whenever im upset.. u will be there to support me.. no matter what i wont leave u too.. i swear.. no matter how hard its gonna be.. i wont leave u..

laopo.. wo zhen de hao ai hao ai ni.. bu ke yi mei you ni.. wo xi wang neng he ni yi qi zou xia qu.. ying wei ni jiu shi wo de wei yi.. dar.. i love u.. muackks..