scribbled ; 9:58 am on Saturday, September 03, 2005
im just blogging this im i just woke up.. the moment i woke up.. i spoke to jw and leen and eileen.. i didnt noe they are treating me so well.. and at that very moment.. tears just rolled down my cheeks.. i dunno why.. i just feel i owe them alot.. they did alot for me.. i appreciate them.. but i always failed to do those things they hope i would be able to do.. im not being emotional here.. i just feeling very tensed and stressed up.. wo zhen de hao xin ku.. i would rather u guys dun tok to me.. at least i wouldnt feel that pain inside.. i noe u guys mean well.. but it only makes me feel really guilty.. i owe them too much.. ytd i was oso speaking to alex.. he told me lots of things.. yet.. i still couldnt get anything inside.. i sincerely apologize to EVERYONE of u.. im sucha let down.. im sorry guys.. i really tried my best.. i really did.. yet i failed.. u guys just treat me too well.. its since a long time.. i cried over frens.. and over my personal matters.. its since a long time i really cried together for the 2 of them.. but to be honest.. its the 1st time.. i shed a tear for any fren.. i dunno y i did that today.. somehow i did.. thanks for u guys.. really thankew.. to all my Fr!enD buds.. u guys make up part of my life..