scribbled ; 2:44 pm on Monday, September 12, 2005
i made someone impt in my life cry again.. im such a idiot.. well done bryan.. u can be named as no.1 bastard in whole Singapore ler.. to me.. life is painful.. its nv sweet.. who else would have thought.. when u found someone so sweet.. and yet still u can lose her.. its good now.. i guess she hates me.. maybe she will forget bout me sooner or later.. but i cant forget her.. maybe i'll just watch over her silently.. no amount of tears would be able to explain this reason.. my eyes are just so swollen.. i just hope i can go blind.. and that's when.. i wont see anything anymore.. that will make me feel better.. what's with r/s? its nth when u hurt ur beloved girl.. i did that.. not once.. not twice.. but uncountable times.. anyway my last promise for her.. she knew bout it.. but.. i wont ever appear in her life again.. at most when im feeling upset.. i'll just have a look at her pictures.. and those sms-es she sent me.. tonnes of them.. but.. by den.. will i be able to see? i guess.. i'll be blind by den.. by those tears.. i cant even open my eyes now.. its swollen.. its real painful.. but compared to wad she received.. its nth.. she stressed that she's single now.. i just hope from now on.. she will be happy and smiling again.. maybe not to me.. but.. i miss her smiles.. i cant see.. but i can feel it.. i still love u.. more den b4.. but.. u are cant have them anymore.. i really dunno whether u are gonna need them anymore.. its life.. i cant accept it.. im not that strong.. in fact im so weak.. who will care? i dun need anyone to care anymore.. unless its her.. but its only a dream.. wo ai ni..

to my bro jw.. life's always difficult.. u will be able to overcome it.. i have faith in u =)