scribbled ; 8:34 pm on Saturday, August 06, 2005
well.. no banquets last forever.. i accept that fact that.. maybe.. endurance aint enough.. it should be fate.. and luck perhaps.. u can be in love with each other.. but with no luck.. nth is gonna last.. thats wad i feel.. maybe an example of me and her.. getting in loved.. but not getting wad we want in this relationship.. maybe sometimes things arent to be said out.. maybe its also time for me to take a break and think again.. but a fact is that i really do love her alot.. im still waiting.. thats a fact.. maybe im still not a seasoned guy in a relationship.. but at least i do noe wad is true love.. but i dunno why.. fate likes to make fun of ppl.. and ppl like me.. i dunno wad is gonna happen next.. i just hope she can be happy and cheerful day in day out.. thats all i pray for her.. and 1 thing too.. i hope i will still be that guy being there for her.. whenever she needs help.. or when she needs someone to confide too.. i hope i can be that guy.. and i will be there for her.. after going thru so much.. changing to another person.. from an emotional guy.. to someone now able to hold back his tears and carry on fighting.. in a short 1 mth.. so many things happened.. happiness and sadness.. all these are things that gonna be deep inside my heart for a long time.. i dunno when.. but it wont be a short time i supposed so.. i still love her alot.. i dunno how she feels for me.. the one i need is her.. i hope 1 day.. she will be back with me.. but right now.. let her take her time..

ps: i just wanna tell u.. my love for u nv changed.. thats all i can show u for..