scribbled ; 5:18 pm on Thursday, August 11, 2005
wad is love? do i really understand the meaning? ppl used to say.. loving someone doesnt mean that u need to have him/her.. how true issit? i dunno.. the past 2 days.. i hadnt been sleeping well.. like i said.. ive been deceiving myself.. wads the point now? wad i can do? i regretted for not speaking wad i wanna tell her.. although it might not make any difference.. at least.. i would have felt better.. am i saying this to deceive myself again? y am i doing all these? i dunno wad i wan now.. i dun even noe how i feel.. who cares.. who will ever bother again? after doing so much.. wad i got? nothing but mockery from someone.. hais.. =`(

when i open my eyes.. the first call.. was from you..
in my heart.. i've never doubted you..
all i wanted was.. to have you by my side.. all day long..
but who knows what would happen.. when fate tends to play a fool on me..
and i know.. there's nothing i could do..
when i realised.. i found u long gone..
i felt so emtpy alone..
i need you.. you are someone that's so true..
i knew i couldn't live without you..
i need you.. cos' you're that someone touching my heart..
and i don't ever wanna let you go..
please don't go.. i hope there's one day you will know..
please don't go.. i believe i'm the one for you..
and i know.. u could be happy with that someone..
that i don't know..
but i know.. i won't let go..
please don't go.. i hope there's one day you will know..
please don't go.. i believe i'm the one for you..
i believe.. someday we will be together again..
its a hope.. i'm praying for..
and its a hope.. i'm waiting for..

tis is a song.. i wrote for her.. when singing tis song.. tears rolled down my cheeks.. it is really from the bottom of my heart.. i hope when she sees tis.. she will feel something.. im not gonna give up.. even with tears in my eyes.. im going to go on.. i told her.. no matter what.. i will still be there for her.. cos i really love her.. and i dun wanna ever deceive myself again.. cos the person i love is her.. i will wait on..