scribbled ; 9:54 am on Monday, August 15, 2005
since im late for sch.. i'll just post for fun.. finally i realise.. like wad sino said.. love takes 2 hands to make it happen.. i've held her hand.. but there are problems in between.. well.. i oso have no idea wad i can do.. i really did alot to convince to assure her.. but.. somehow.. things dont always have a happy ending dont they? finding a lil princess for me is as hard as asking me to climb mount everest.. tot i've done that.. but im wrong.. i dun blame her for all these.. i can wait.. i dun mind.. but wad am i really thinking? no doubt.. the person i love is her.. but even if 2 person is in love.. does that means that u 2 can be together? i doubt so.. i dun believe in 2 person getting together even if they really love each other.. as in my case.. obviously.. im feeling the pain up my chest again.. im just holding it back.. now i feel.. this is the only place where i can vent out on everything.. sadness,happiness,anger.. tis blog is my good fren.. only it understands me most.. even without replies.. i noe wad i should do.. tears rolling down my cheeks? no.. im gonna hold them back.. i dun wanna be that soft anymore.. im just gonna prove that i can be strong for her.. cos she's feeling down.. i can be that support for her.. its never been easy for me in relationship.. maybe im not in for it.. i can give all my promises and assurances that i wont hurt her.. but i cant force her.. she has her own choice to make.. even if she dun wish to.. she hafta let things go.. i dunno where else i can find that extra bit of confidence for her.. i really wish to find that.. just to give it to her.. being hurt badly once is bad enough.. i dun wish to have a 2nd time.. since that fateful day.. my frens told me.. "i've nv seen u smile again.." how i wish i could.. but its nv possible again..

to my dear HUI: its not impt how ppl thinks.. its impt on how u really think.. if u gonna let things go easily.. i will just hold onto ur hands and grap hold of them.. i will help u to do that.. u hafta stand firm.. i noe past isnt easy to forget.. so as for me.. thats y we needa be there for each other.. i will do everything possible to make everything back in place.. trust me.. and i love u..