scribbled ; 5:00 pm on Monday, August 22, 2005
just feeling very vexed.. ok.. let me make it very clear.. i've NEVER ever treated u as something u said.. and i've NEVER treated her that well EITHER.. u didnt choose to believe me.. i was rather upset.. i respected ur decision.. but DONT ever force me to choose her.. just becos u felt she was more suitable for me.. u noe how i feel better den ANYONE.. yet u said those words.. i've nv FADED.. i can swear with that.. u told me u understand wad happened.. now u are telling me all these.. yes actions speak louder den words.. maybe in the eyes of u.. im not that good anyway.. i nv want to blame anyone.. just myself.. maybe im just not good enough.. i changed.. u noticed it too.. for u.. i dun expect much.. just hope u will recognise all of them.. i wont ever treat someone i really love as a replacement of someone.. or regard her as a 3rd party.. suan le.. if u really dun trust me.. i only can say im sorry to break all those trust.. im tired.. i respect ur decision in wadever u decides.. as long as it can let u be happy.. i dun mind.. i wan u to be happy.. thats all im asking for.. oh ya.. im immature in r/s.. yeah right.. agree with it bryan goh.. dont touch it.. u aint good enough for ANYONE.. u have NO rights to choose.. and dont EVER hurt anyone out there.. u just SUCK bryan.. damn u.. bryan goh.. PLEASE DONT EVER APPEAR IN THEIR LIVES AGAIN.. just simple FUCK OFF OK? zzz