scribbled ; 11:31 pm on Tuesday, August 23, 2005
gonna blog b4 i go off.. someone say see my previous post very sian narhs.. bo bians.. =x hahas.. well today VERY tiring day and sick day.. -.- oh ya.. morning wake up at 10am lor.. den tok to xian.. she seems very moody.. well.. xian cheer up.. there's light at the end of the tunnel.. trust me =) den after that.. went sch.. reached sch ard going to 1pm ler.. den tok cock with xian again.. den we chat alot of things la.. bo bian we good frens.. can click.. hahas.. den after that went for LAST CATS lesson.. very solemn mood.. all sad sad.. cos last lesson liaos.. =/ well gonna miss everyone.. den after that.. went to SW and GENG.. hahas.. tell coach INJURED la.. SICK la.. hahas.. the coach say.. ya ya.. go sit 1 side la.. lols.. =p den after that went home lors.. very tired.. den reach home.. chat wif ling.. as usual larhs.. crap lors.. really enjoy toking to her narhs.. =) wah lao.. im not bian tai lehs.. im INNOCENT.. *winks winks* hehes.. lols.. oh ya.. 1 new rhyming phrase.. "LICK MY ASS, KISS MY BACKSIDE" lols =x hahas.. nice hoR? hahas.. after that pei ling lor.. cos she not feeling well..

well sometimes i feel.. im taken for granted by others.. well.. if u guys think i hurt a particular person.. think again.. ok? my conscience is clear.. i have nothing to hide.. i believe there are ppl who really understands wad im going thru.. i dun wanna owe anyone anything.. thats all i hafta say..

hmm.. sometimes i feel im insensitive.. unable to understand a girl.. yeah.. i needa work on that perhaps.. that will allow 2 person to click =).. well.. i suddenly felt.. my life is no more the same.. im so tired.. i seriously just wish if i fall aslp.. i will never wake up.. thats wad buddhism and christians said.. when u leave tis world.. its not a misery.. u just left misery instead.. hmm.. if thats the case.. maybe im suffering now.. but i wont end my life.. just wanna leave peacefully.. cos im really tired of squabblings.. problems.. many problems.. cant seem to solve all of them.. hao lei hao lei.. i finally noe how to stand up.. BUT yet.. there's a sudden surge of cold air blowing against me.. discouraging me again.. who will be there to encourage and pull me up again? who noes.. im so tired.. well.. end here.. cant slp anyway.. =/

ps: time doesnt matter anymore.. i've waited for so long.. any longer wont make any differences.. cos im used to waiting.. i have to be optimistic again.. i'll try.. i'll really try hard..