scribbled ; 1:10 am on Tuesday, July 12, 2005
yeah.. im blogging now.. =).. well.. many things happened.. ok.. lets start from the morning.. i woke up.. and went to sch.. for MCAD paper.. was quite ok.. except for question 4 which i couldnt do.. so i guess should be able to pass ba.. den after that.. went to meet my cousin.. played pool with him b4 haven dinner with him too.. den after that went home.. someone said.. daffy and colty rotate.. ok.. in my heart i knew.. that was the end =).. if something like this gonna happen.. by invite me back from the start? go away hypocrite.. =) u are pbanned by me =).. i told abd and bryan.. well.. both was quite upset.. but i hope u guys understand me =) and i think yea.. u guys do =).. den after that.. she called me.. she was concern bout me.. i told her im fine.. and yeah.. something i did expect happened.. =) she was reluctant to say.. but i wanted her to tell me.. just go straight to the point.. i dun mind =) she said she had a new bf.. i was like hmm.. ok.. and she said the bf is him.. i noe who is that guy.. and er.. yeah.. she didnt wanna tell me.. cos i was having CT and she was afraid that i will get upset and do badly.. but its ok.. =) and of course.. we are not fated.. like u said.. u felt awkward even though u wanted us to be together again.. i dun blame u.. thats all fated.. =) i just hope he treats u well.. and i think he would =).. well.. while she was saying.. i really felt like crying.. but i bite my lips hard.. and i really tried to hold back my tears and i kept blowing air to my face.. phew.. well i did it.. i didn shed a tear.. but i continue biting my lips.. cos i knew i wouldnt be able to control if i started crying.. so.. it was really tough.. but as i said.. im willing to wait.. but for now.. i hafta draw a line in between.. cos we can only be good frens now.. in the future we never noe.. cos i will wait.. =)