scribbled ; 10:55 pm on Sunday, July 03, 2005
well.. today its not a good day.. just average bah.. hais.. i still misses her alot.. =( .. today woke up eyes couldnt open.. im having a high fever.. i guess it is becos i nv slp for 2 days.. kept drinking.. and sorry to those who didnt wan me to smoke.. i touched it again.. im depressed.. definitely.. i love her lots.. =/ hais.. den after that morning.. i was all the while being dead at home.. only till afternoon.. jw asked me out.. im sick.. but i agreed.. =/ just wanna chill out.. i noe i cant.. but still.. hafta give jw face.. cos he ask me out de.. den.. i brought my lappy along.. cos jw wanna use it to study.. we went kbox.. i wasnt in the mood to sing obviously.. plus im sick.. =/ so.. mei ban fa.. i tried.. den after singing.. went to mac.. and went online to chat wif her.. wads so coincident was that.. all the songs i sang.. are songs that she's listening.. actually wanted to call her and sing for her.. but i didnt have the courage to do so.. hais.. wad an idiot am i.. but nvm.. had a good chat wif her.. let me recall of the days we were together.. so happy.. but i dun wanna force her.. after that.. i went home ler.. reached home saw Zoe Tay do that dices stunt.. cool.. respect for her.. after that went to chat wif her on fone.. she wanted me to sing her song.. which i did.. and its the 1st time i've did that to a girl.. and to someone who means so much to me.. after that.. i told her my feelings.. i could feel that she was shocked.. and true enough.. she wanted to avoid it.. and she told me she wanted to go to bed.. and she sent me a msg.. i dont wish to say them out.. hais.. im sorry.. i didnt mean to.. but u really mean ALOT ALOT ALOT to me.. i hope u understand.. i really love u..... =(

d0veyy crying away.. =`(