scribbled ; 3:41 pm on Tuesday, December 14, 2004
its been 3 nights since i last fall into dreamland.. i dunno y.. i cant slp.. but i dun seem to be tired.. i seem to be stabbed deeply into my heart.. feeling really down.. my frens have all told me to cheer up.. think of happy things.. its seems so difficult.. im gonna suffocate.. i need air.. and only you can give me.. things have not turned out the way i wanted.. i may not be good enough.. but at least i need to noe y.. i hate myself.. i hate my life.. i guess i shall rot my life away.. hai..