scribbled ; 7:33 am on Friday, August 19, 2011
hey buddy! it's been ages ya? how have you been? did you missed me? first thing's first. happy birthday to me! wahahaha.. but it seems i'm not really happy. lol. hmm, i didn't sleep well the whole night. no idea. it was the same feelings like 2 years plus ago. i don't know whether it'll be the same ending though.

anyway just to share with you. it's my birthday today. thanks for being my listening ear for so long. =)


scribbled ; 10:54 pm on Tuesday, March 15, 2011
hi my dear blog. its been ages i visited u. and i guess no one visits u anymore except me. well. sometimes i jus wonder whether im the right one for her. it jus seems like i can only make her upset when i shouldnt. tell me what should i do? hais. i jus wanna lead a simple life with her but its seems so hard. i guess its jus my problem. i dont seem to make a good bf. luck has been leaving me since like god knows when. there was a short period like 3 mths when i had everything i wanted. luck was with me. but it has left. i really need that bt of luck to stand up again. i dunno who i am anymore.i dunno wad i want anymore. im lost. its affecting everything in my fucking life. i dun want to have history repeating itself where someone i love leaves me jus before our 2nd yr. i had that once. i dun want it to happen again. God, if you hear me, pls help me. im really at my wits end. teach me and guide me the way. fuck my life. haha.


scribbled ; 11:35 pm on Monday, November 15, 2010
it's been ages since i touched this blog. i guess no one reads it anymore. i shall just be typing something emo again. haha.

seriously why be a hypocrite? you were. yes were. after what i've known today. you were once someone whom i trust, someone whom i share my sorrows and unhappiness with and yet you stabbed me in the back with the bunch of kids. well done. the kids are nothing to me, but you meant something. since you've broken the trust. it's alright. having one less friend like you wouldn't make my life worst.

somehow, i've gotta thank this new kid on the block for telling me so much. i shall not name names here. incase of any repercussions. so i guess this is life, i shall decide to be someone who don't trust anyone ANYMORE. like what my cousin said. these kinda people are all around you. do NOT trust them totally, always stay neutral and just don't bother about all these things. maybe she's right. i shall not care and do my own stuffs from now onwards.

baby told me exactly the same too. why wanna bother? i shall just treat you as a hi-bye friend from now on. i think after letting people make use of me for so long. it's time for me to think more for myself.

a word of advice to all, never trust ANYONE and i mean ANYONE except yourself. or maybe you can trusting ur loved ones. nevertheless, the loved ones might be the ones who hurt you most at the end of the day.

i'm starting to hate waking up. the dreaded feeling sucks. but somehow i have no chose but to do it. just a few more months to go. bryan you can do it! i guess i really need some words of wisdom from anyone. i shall just try to stay happy. luckily for me, i've got my bro yuanjie. lol. my bunch of idiotic friends like qz, pek, mel. lastly, my dearest baby.

i guess they are the only ones i really trust. no to others.. sorry to be hurting anyone, but somehow i've learnt from my lessons. not once but twice. so to those who are really sincere, it's not that i'm not friendly or i do not trust you. it's just that it's really hard for me to trust someone right now.

everyday i have bad feelings surrounding me. i know i've went through even worst times than what i'm going through now. still, i can't help it but to feel demoralised. someone, please do me a favour. help me will you? i wouldn't say it's depression, neither is it a burnout. i'm in the middle of both. i guess. anyone can actually tell me what to do?


scribbled ; 11:54 pm on Tuesday, January 12, 2010
suddenly, i feel really really down. the unwanted feeling. well, maybe....... i don't know either.......


scribbled ; 12:13 am on Friday, November 20, 2009
i was surprised to see that this will be my 400th post in this blog.

for the past few days, unhappy things have happened. please tell me what i can do. i really don't want anything to happen to you my dear. why don't you just tell me? it hurts and it really does. it's not just hurting me, but it is hurting both of us. i want you to be happy. i want you to share your problems with me.

someone, please tell me what i can do.


scribbled ; 10:53 pm on Monday, November 09, 2009
yeah, out of the blue right? yes, i'm blogging. HAHA!

hmm, things have been settling down definitely. baby and me have been doing alright. things have become better and better. i hope that just means settling down well right?

yes, to my 4e1 peeps. i'm pretty sorry for not being able to really stay late with you guys. cause i've started to have more commitments, hope you guys understand. but of course, i'm still really looking forward to meet up with all of you peeps whenever there's a gathering. =D miss you guys loads definitely. hehe. =D

i'm also glad i'm finally playing games again! as i mentioned earlier, since i've already settled down, i'm trying to find some time out to play games so as i can relax myself from stress. so i'm feeling pretty good being back to playing games.

lastly of course, to my dearest baby. i'm just glad that everything seems to be fine now. i know now and then we still have quarrels, but i know u've been giving in. but believe me my dear, i'm also trying. i know sometimes it's my temper, but i'm trying hard. thanks for having faith in me. i love you. =D


scribbled ; 11:38 pm on Friday, September 11, 2009
i need some enlightenment badly.